four decades and counting........

THE FACE OF 40

so hear i am having reached the milestone of my fourth decade,can't say that i feel any differently, then i did when i reached my third...in fact i think the first would have been the happiest and most carefree, parents to take care of you,fun in the sun....school was never a chore, as the decades crept up,life became somewhat more difficult, the time came around when being a responsible adult and learning to operate,in a world that is not always fair,...indelibly marks the passage of time, on your face:)the laughter lines,the signs of wisdom on your forehead,the telltale silver roots on your head.

these are really, the signs,of a life well lived,of experiences,the highs and the lows, all of which informs the me in my fourth decade, dare i say it,...as my friends have been pointing out today, the BIIIIIIG 40. (of course what i have just said, could be false bravado,as i see my past and visibly shiver at the future ahead of me).the wrinkles and grays, are just that wrinkles and grays,...and they tell me in no uncertain terms that i am getting older with each passing day.

so what is all the halabaloo, about....when hollywood stars reach this milestone,it's all the new 30,..they are more in tune with themselves, their sexuality,their family,blah,blah,blah..ordinary people like myself,don't seem to be in that position, my fortieth, has passed on like any other day,...got up this morning,did my prayers, got to the office by 9am, put in a full day,now it will be off to seeing to dinner etc, what essentially changed,...nothing really,just the greys and the wrinkles.oooh the thought of that is frightful,makes you feel that your life was really uneventful,...ok i've finally got it, this is the point where one lists one achievements, pats oneself on the back, and looks forward to doing the things you have not got around to doing yet.ok so i've finally reached my light bulb moment,mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,still nothing springs to mind.

what i am grateful for, are all the wonderful characters that have coloured my world,friends at home and abroad, that put a smile on my face, and all of the interesting people, i have met in cyberspace,who expand my world,..who increase my knowledge,even those that still think i'm sexy at 40 :)...(ok, that would be me.)

i'm just grateful for life, for the ability to live it,...and the sense to question it.then there are the things i would still love to do,...
learn to surf,travel some more,travel with friends,find more time to get to the beach,take an advanced driver's course,spend more time with friends than the occasional weekend, make millions out of this blog,...just make millions,(hehehe,that would mean i could retire, and spend more time blogging, and traveling to exotic destinations).know wouldn't that be a great goal to work towards.

my friends are probably laughing at the fantasy of it all, for the most part, they are working mom's juggling career and kids, then there are the television personalities and aspiring politicians,the financiers,the lawyers,the advertising execs,...all with one thing in common,the house the kids, and in some cases the dog.i have souly managed to cling on to my Independence,..which as recent blogs have shown, has reached that, aag!! shame category, you really need to settle down,stage.i have never been that person, the person,that could pigeonhole my life into categories of the things we need to achieve in each decade,
decade 2, get an education, then a job
decade 3 get married, have kids,job,and mortgage
decade 4 settle into the above,make loads of money,...
so here i am decade 4, and still possibly,living the life of decade 2,....waiting for my night in shining armour,that got a giggle out of me.no, realistically speaking,i woke up in this decade,realising that most of my married friends are a little bored with life, stressed from juggling life at home and careers, then there are those that woke up and decided, that trying to score with the only single female in their social life,might not be a bad idea, urgh!!!!it's so demeaning.

why didn't any of those try when they were single?it is as if "middle age" unleashes this fragile insecure person, who needs to find reason or belief in there own sexuality by flirting with what is perceived as attainable.....yech,..guys and girls get a life,flirt with your partners, the result will be fun and favourable.

at forty, i am going to do the things, i have always wanted to do but never got around to.(like stella get my groove on),read the books lining my shelves, that have as yet not been touched,...take up photography, have a holiday fling:),mostly just making time to get out of the regular 9-5 humdrum, that is life.i need to do the things,that are fun and not routine,live life to the fullest, which could be easier said then done.
any ideas, common guys, send me notes, what to do when you are 40.